where did i go
where have i gone
i look around
trying to see
where have i gone
for all i see
is a mother and a wife
where have i gone
i cannot see
i know i have lost something vital
like an organ that is important
oh, my heart, my soul, my name
how do i find it again
this important piece of myself
that has long been gone these past few years
looking hard
looking deep
i think i see a glimmer
or a shadow
of what i seek
hope is on the horizon
no matter how the journey
is long and steep
hope is in the stars
guiding me at night
hope is in the clouds
shading me in the harshest of heat
hope is in the soil
grounding me when all feels lost
hope is in the air
pulling me forward
pulling me back
saying remember
never forget
for this is but a lesson
on the long walk of life
what we live through
only makes us stronger
so when the next turn drops from the sky
we can survive
for this is but a small fraction of time
where have i gone
i think i know
for i am behind
in front
on the side
seeking answers
seeking prayers
seeking knowledge
seeking life
i am not lost
just set aside for know
looking in
finding answers
from my true self
Lissa ~
i look around
trying to see
where have i gone
for all i see
is a mother and a wife
where have i gone
i cannot see
i know i have lost something vital
like an organ that is important
oh, my heart, my soul, my name
how do i find it again
this important piece of myself
that has long been gone these past few years
looking hard
looking deep
i think i see a glimmer
or a shadow
of what i seek
hope is on the horizon
no matter how the journey
is long and steep
hope is in the stars
guiding me at night
hope is in the clouds
shading me in the harshest of heat
hope is in the soil
grounding me when all feels lost
hope is in the air
pulling me forward
pulling me back
saying remember
never forget
for this is but a lesson
on the long walk of life
what we live through
only makes us stronger
so when the next turn drops from the sky
we can survive
for this is but a small fraction of time
where have i gone
i think i know
for i am behind
in front
on the side
seeking answers
seeking prayers
seeking knowledge
seeking life
i am not lost
just set aside for know
looking in
finding answers
from my true self
Lissa ~
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Comment by Ellen S on July 1, 2009 at 1:16pm - Thanks Lissa. Unfortunately I'm the same way. When I'm in pain and depressed I get very creative. It shows in the things I'm making, whatever they are. I also am very creative when feeling hopeful. Thankfully I'm more hopeful than depressed! When I worked as an artist, the hardest thing for me was creating something to order. How I felt always came out in what I made, no matter how small the piece was.
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Comment by lissamel on July 1, 2009 at 12:14pm -
Thank you for reading and understanding. Fighting the ever evolving grief cycle that will never stop until a cure is discovered, writing about it makes it easier to experience. Funny how i am only creative when depressed!
I will take your suggestion and post it to the site you have given tonight as i am at work at this moment. I do not want anything in return other than sharing my pain and frustration :-)
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Comment by Ellen S on July 1, 2009 at 10:25am
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Lissa,
I love to see Hope playing such a part in your posts! Hope is the thing with feathers... (Emily Dickinson)
Why don't you post this in the Chronic Pain Voices contest too? " target="_blank">Chronic Pain Voices Contest too?
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